my life,my love.

lovesick?!

2010-01-19T12:37:00.002+08:00

uuhhhh.alright,i know i haven't been updating my blogg for super uber longg.
i apologised for that,hee.
sianns.
my bf's serving NS....
sadded):
todae's still tues leh!!means 4more daes b4 i get to mit him agn.
ohh ya,one more good news is,i've got a job!
eehhh,some kinda food promoter?
aiya,new yr dried food.omg.mushrooms from JAPAN<<(thats wad the person specified at)
hmmm.so means i'll have a lil bit of income>>den i can buy valentine's gift for kuku.hee
but,i dunno wad he likes ehhhh.(except for his fred perry and gucci)

bad day

2009-11-01T18:30:00.003+08:00

quarrelled with my bf agn.wad a bad day.always wanted the best for him.budden he doesnt appreciate it.wad can i do?am i being unreasonable this time?
sigh):
the worst case was; todae is our 37th month anniversary.
and eventually we blown up.
wtf.
PS: baby, i hope ue understand my intention, now i've blown it up, and ue chose to ignore me.
i know im to blame for this matter.
but wad will ue do if ue were to be in my shoes?
today ue chose to let me go, without even try'n to stop me, ue know how i feel?
heartaching, head splitting, my mind was thinking of todae's incident. hoping that nth had happened earlier, hoping that ue would drop me a msg. tell me wad ue want me to do.

life's a struggle

2009-10-29T10:55:00.003+08:00

stressed up.im struggling with my life,trying to have a balance now.
things cock up in some ways.at this critical moment
when im try'n hard to complete my report,my mind had other thoughts.
am i driving myself too hard?
im now stucked in a deserted corner,calling for help.
i've been thinking too much lately,
should i give myself a break?
bcos this stupid and naive thinking had only affected myself but to my relationship too.
my mind isnt with me,cant concentrate.
mind is elsewhere,i think i left it at home.laughs.
im struggling peeps.

im sorrie ppl, im not in the mood to joke now.

remorseful.

2009-09-27T15:24:00.003+08:00

im having a splitting headache,and my heart ached too.
cos i did something regretting last yr.
this nightmare has been haunting me.
todae,it reminds me agn.
i never knew i could be so cruel and heartless.
im sorrie.
i guess i'll never forgive myself.
im feeling so fucking remorseful.
can someone just wake me up from this never ending dream?
i just couldn't stop thinking of the incident.
all these while,i've been trying to forget it.
how could i be so cruel?
how could i be so inhuman?

im sorrie dar.
i dunno wad's gotten into me.
i know ue do hate me for doing that.

same old procedure

2009-09-23T13:15:00.003+08:00

aiya.same old procedure.
wake up,wash up,shower,leave house fer sch.
now im stucked in the flight zone.hahaha
todae my job is simple,inspect the locks den spray paint if they're dried.

huat boss,mafia boss and saikang playing CS.
duh -.-
wonder wad's so nice abt that game.shoooot ue ah~

todae im so kelian.
eat cup noodle~
cos canteen stalls are closed!@#*
salman sae want bring chocolates fer me.budden im on diet!

todae...boring dae.
RECRUIT YANG learning how to drive a tank todae.
hahaha.good luck sillyboy!

boring dae =.=

2009-09-22T14:36:00.002+08:00

duh.sian.todae sucks uh. cmi.
holidae still needa come back to rush my PROJECT.
hahahah.supposed to meet at 9am in the flight zone.
budden...giggles* lazy ah.
actually i reached yishun at 0830 de.
budden hungry.went for food hunt.
eh.another cmi thing.
i cant find 'breadtalk'. i thought it is located at the northpoint basement.
so i dragged saikang down. -.-
she didnt object either.
after searching the whole basement 1 and 2.
we returned to 'old chang kee' to get some food.
den i realised.
breadtalk is just in front of me.
wah piang eh.waste my precious time leh.

huat boss and mafia boss late ah.hahaha.
den carried on with e filing..
den spray primer! (finally!!!)
eh.the smell hor-ji-ble(horrible) lah.
even i wear mask,still can smell it.
another problem is,the mask is sooooooo.....CHEAPSKATE
so fucking thin.
so cheap also.(i saw the price tag on e box)
50 pcs for $4.50!!!!!!'
wah kau!

my life alrd shortened by 5yrs fer inhaling excessive metal dust into my lungs.
(all stucked there.now got difficulty breathing)
now smell e stupid primer.
i think now my life shortened by 7-10yrs le.
gone case.mati alrd lah!

congrats JJ!

2009-09-21T12:25:00.002+08:00

wahahaha!handsome JJ got married leh!so happie fer him(:
i bet he must be having a good time now.honeymoon period mah!

ytd's also MR NG YUZE's birthdae.laughs*
sent him a birthdae msg.hope he sees it.

my 1week hols has started.lol.budden still gotta go back to school to complete my project.
(so guys,jiayou!)
we gotta finish the project b4 JJ comes back from his honeymoon.lol

eheh.while Mr.Yang is booking in later.
he damns shagg (everytime de)

many things have happened fer the past few daes.
me and him quarrelled almost each time we met.
sigh* both of us are stubborn lah.not just me alone.

i just hope that there's no more arguements in the future.

fruitful dae.

2009-09-17T11:52:00.007+08:00

yea.our group photo!without me of cos.im the camera-woman!

todae,JJ speak to us individually.hahah.yea lo.the monthly interview.
he called for me.im the first one.everyone giggled:D
thought he's gonna scold me.
budden he said some stuffs to encourage me.woots.
so happie.yea,i know my team has slacken(sort of luh)
budden we're serious on proving to JJ that we can meet his expectations and hand up our project b4 the deadline.laughs*

today,i feel that im the lucky one,bcos i've gained alot from his words.
though at times he's demanding.but he always push us to the limit that we can work independently.hahaha.like wad he said,doesnt wanna breastfeed us,plus he got no breast.
i was like sitting down there giggling.

Yuze's gg to canada with my laoda(tanaka) tmr le.
will miss his laughter i guess.and his "MISS LIM~"
laughs* took some photos earlier.
almost every pict got the MR NNNNGGGGGG.

(just hope yuze will get me some chocolates!)

P.S thankyou JJ!

2009-09-15T11:22:00.003+08:00

im loss for words todae.
mind is completely blank. -.-
so shagg since ytd.
what actually went wrong?
no one knows.

he's going back to camp todae.
nah.not meeting him bah.
maybe we'll be alright when he next book out.
aaaaaahhhh.

we're drifting apart.further and further.
just like strangers.
my life...

sigh*
he doesn't care,about me,about our r'ship.
i dunno wad to do.
should i salvage this brokened love?
den who'll mend my wounds?
does love really exists?
i'm starting to question myself.

P.S i really do hope ue still love me.

confirm or confused?

2009-09-14T12:03:00.002+08:00

hmmm.i dunno wad im thinking now.confirm or confused?
had a quarrel ytd.i dunno wad's wrong with me.problem lies with me.my fault.
my attitude sucks uh.budden no matter wad comes by,he shouldn't leave me right?
but he did..panicked when i got knocked down and i lost sight of him.thought i'm gonna die without him.(yeah,i know it's drama aite)
sigh* if he really love me,he wouldnt have done so.aren't he afraid that i'll lose my way or something?

couldnt sleep last night.was crying and poundering over the matter.
i was like so stupid and dumb.i eventually cried in public.i know its not the first time alrd -.-
he didn't contact me todae.think its over between us.ohmy.
was wondering,will i regret after asking him for a break-up?
though he didnt reply me,budden i know the ans.
laughs.he must be fuming last night.
imagine his face..
i do treasure him nah.budden ue know.when both parties are angry..hmm.
ytd i wrote some nasty stuff in my yellow notebook.thinking that its the end.
dirty my book.got tears everywhere on the page.hahaha.no mucus lah.
sometimes i feel that he doesnt treasure me.zzz.so sadded right.
everything goes wrong ytd..

im sorry aite.i just dunno how to face ue now.

woah!

2009-09-09T11:44:00.002+08:00

woah..tiring dae.just did some filing on the sheetmetal.si bei shagg ah!
den hor.sweat. -.-'''
my thumb is swollen):
(anyone can offer me plaster not?)
hahas.todae i'll get to see jon.
budden i gotta rush also.
cos my class would probably end at ard 5.15pm.
den the POP starts at 6pm.
aaaaaahhhhhhh.headache.
i got no excuse to tell JJ that i wan2 leave early.
sadded.btw.another prob is..
i dunno even know how to get there?!

hope everything runs smoothly as i've expected nah!
hahahah.
miss my babyy(:

tiring dae ;D

2009-09-08T11:31:00.002+08:00

hey hey!im back.hahah.
todae is a tiring dae eh.filing the sheetmetal.duh.
budden its fun luh.at least i did something(:
flu is still going on,hmm.sniff*sniff*
i guess i'll be doing the sheetmetal the whole dae.(my hands are swollen!)
my group has done 1 control lock for the aileron.its nice!just that we gotta touch-up abit luh!
while todae saikang is in the flight zone,all by herself to do the scanning of manuals.hehehe!

ytd night i cant get to sleep,insomnia~ T.T
yea.im tired and lethargic todae.hope todae will end asap.
have alot of stuffs stucked in my mind.
the past,those people.
the ugly truth.
and also,me and jon had a little disagreement ytd night.
so..maybe that's something affecting my sleep too):
budden this morning i saw e msg he sent me last night.he apologised.
woots.that's nice of him(: ♥

passing out parade is tmr!
hahah.so excited leh!
will get to see my babyy!

hahah.love ya! ♥

♥yang hun jie♥

nabei.damns shagg uh!

2009-09-04T15:18:00.000+08:00

sorrie ppl.im sick for the past 2 daes.hahah.budden im doing good lah.no prob.
having a horrible flu and fever.
faint~

hoping that everything goes smoothly as i've expected.
budden something cropped up.
my sillyboy kena detention barrack.
yeah.damns suay.
so it means that.im not seeing him for this week.
haish.
okaes lahs.
budden POP is near the corner le.
9SEPT09
nice date right?
wonder if he's alright..
must be feeling damns fucking upset.
just like i do.

aaaaaaahhhhhh.
damns shagg.
wad should i do?

P.S yea sillyboy.i would definitely miss you.
♥jonathan yang hun jie♥

back to school.

2009-09-02T11:02:00.003+08:00

sian ah.im back to school agn.got stucked in the flight zone.lol.the room is freaking cold.and im having a horrible flu since ytd.eeeeeek.
todae as usual.our group gotta do scanning of the manuals agn.den just a moment ago,something happened to the lappy,which i do not know in details.hmms.the lappy lagged when scanning.SICK.means we gotta restart everything.laughs.poor suzanne that saikang.

todae actually my babyy meeting me.budden hor.last minute cannot meet nor.sians.
budden nevermind nah.will get to see him on this coming weekend.
i request a pair of sneakers from my beloved.budden its quite ex eh.abit guo fen loh.
laughs*

♥i love you honey♥
♥jonathan yang hun jie♥

malu incident.

2009-09-01T13:55:00.004+08:00

wahpiang.ytd something happened to me.at tampines inter.ehh.actually is nothing de lah.budden it's so F MALU nah.all saikang's fault nor.humph.she wanted to buy bus concession so we went to queue at the ticketing office.at the same time,she passed me a lollipop.yah,ue know i would surely unwrap the sweet wrappers and start eating right.im a good citizen so i started to look for a dustbin.when i returned.i tot suzanne was queuing at the wrong line.so i went forward to hint her.i wrap my arms over her shoulders and whisper to her,when she turns ard,she's not saikang.but another aunty queuing behind us.i took ard 5seconds to know that i've been hugging the wrong person.and the aunty just gave me a stunned look,and said "xiaomei,ni ren cuo ren le(recognised the wrong person)" yes yes.it's like...WTF?!saikang turns ard and start laughing.i got nothing to sae lah.LAN LAN nor. -.-'''

yes and of cos.i've learnt my lessons.no more hugging the wrong person.
hahaha.it reminds me of another incident which is similar to this.i mistaken a guy as my boyfriend,i start grabbing his hand and shop ard bugis street.while my bf is far right at the back looking for me.i kept walking and walking,holding someone whom i do not know.yet i'm still so happie.
P.S im sorrie darlingg.this happened 2yrs ago.just dont have the guts to tell ue.hehehe.
bloody hell.why am i alwaes so clumsy and blur leh?

my babyy is back in the camp.
no one to fight with me over the weekdaes.
ohya.and todae is our 35th month anniversary.
wahahahahahahahahahahaha.siao.
im gonna ask fer a gift.
ehh.which i do not know wad i want yet.

♥jonathan yang hun jie♥

weekend's life.

2009-08-30T16:04:00.000+08:00

ta-da~todae's sundae le.time flies.eeeeek.and the sadded thing is,my babyy is going back to camp agn.yas yas.of cos im sadded lah.budden,wad to do?take one knife,threathen him not to go meh.lame.laughs*
todae my babyy's daddie is sick!haha,den babyy and me cooked porridge for him.sounds simple budden im sweating like hell.
i'll be having hols on mondae and tuesdae,eeeee,so sian.later i at home EMO uh.laughs*as if i would nor.
saikang plans to go out walk walk nehs.but i suggested to watch a movie if we have the money to do so.(think dont have bahs)
budden the thing is,im so freaking LAZY~
plus,my precious ezlink is MISSING~ cant go out often also.ue know hor.it really cost me a bomb leh,to make a new ezlink and for the concession.
i think im gonna faint anytime,anywhere~
sian,sian,sian.life sucks without my babyy.
im just like a zombie roaming ard.urrgh.alwaes hoping for the weekdaes to pass ASAP.laughs*
no lah,in sch also have good times,budden i just prefer weekends.cos i'll get to see someone.

♥♥jonathan yang hun jie♥♥

ohmy,that saikang.

2009-08-28T11:37:00.003+08:00

ta-da!yea,i know that's very lame.aiya.ue know hor.today is seriously not my dae lah.early in the morning got presentation abt the IBEAM project nor.ue dunno?neh~neh~the flight control lock nor.understand not?laughs*we were so fucking worried and nervous abt it.by right,saikang is supposed to speak up first.budden,by left.is me nah!ytd she told us she's going to prepare a script for today's presentation.budden hor.this morning we ask her abt the preparation,she replied"AIYA!ytd hor.i drink wine mah,den hor.i blur blur go sleep."that means never prepare nor.so OBVIOUS.hahaha.no.laughs*one more thing,she's damns blur fuck todae,forget bring this,forget bring that.ahem*ear plugs and goggles.water bottle,ear studs etc.wonder if she would forget to brush her teeth before she come meet me not. -.- and hor.she likes to leave her phone everywhere she goes.she can leave it there and forget abt that.
giggles*ohya.im her hairstylist for the day:D wahahahaha.make her scream~now she now there act cute,touche touche her hair~faint.

not to mention,yes yes.i missed my boyfriend everyday,every hour,every minute,seconds,mili-seconds and blah blah blah.hahahaha.
and today is friday!(means he's returning tmr!)
hope today JJ will release early(so i can go back home to Zzz)
anyways,my team members are alrd dozing off in the flight zone.lethargic day,and me.
laughs* MS SAIKANG seems to be on diet todae(though she ate smth just now)
cos now is lunch time and yet she's stucked in the room with me(she's staring at me posting my blog) =.= horrible JJ.aiya.he's always so terrible and horrible.im gonna complain to my boyfriend when he's back.(baby,i hope ue sees this)

nah nah nahs.time must pass ASAP.
god bless me but not saikang.(dunno why she's laughing now?)

ohya,not forgetting my boyfriend.

♥JONATHAN YANG HUN JIE♥

i'm late for class todae!

2009-08-27T11:34:00.003+08:00

ohmy,im late for class today.den so suay yea,JJ was in the flight zone.nizam,suzanne and me were late,we came running into the flight zone,giggling.everyone was like,stunned.hahah,in fact im fucking shocked uh.was wondering why im alwaes so suay.whenever im late,JJ willl drop by flight zone.eeeee.next thing is he shout nor,WHY SO LATE?!!budden actually we're late for 2minutes.den he nagged nagged,den delay time,worse. -.- hahaha.not my dae~

ohyah,btw.i received my tee!!hahah.saikang and me passed our NAFA test!i chose black one,cos i'll look slim in that!hehehehe.todae we wore that tee!wah,was like..so fucking happie! (like sua-ku like that i know).anywae.im gonna treasure that tee like how i treasure my boyfriend ya.haha,siao.think he's gonna kill me when he sees this.

i'll get to see my boyfriend this coming sat.im waiting!

♥jonathan yang hun jie♥

my very own blog!

2009-08-26T09:36:00.005+08:00

hello everyone.hehehe.ue know something,i'm abit..retarded.don't know how to use this.SAIKANG (suzannekang) did all these for me.hahah.im just supposed to post my blog,type and save it.at this very moment,suzanne's sitting down beside me,singing my favourite song while editing blog.dumb.todae is the dae whereby all the IA students are coming back for their presentaion.woots.get to see all my friends back in school.don't understand why some people's result wasn't so good but still managed to get into industry.bloody.so freaking unfair.now,everydae im stucked in this sick campus for my attachment.arrggh.everydae do nth but scanning.still there's some students complaining that we're having a good life in the flight zone,sick of their complaints.
hais.my babyy is in NS.sian.miss him ♥